Monday, August 21, 2006

timshel...



GENESIS 4:1-16

And Adam knew Eve his wife; and she conceived, and bare Cain, and said, I have gotten a man from the LORD and she again bare his brother Abel. And Abel was a keeper of sheep, but Cain was a tiller of the ground. And in process of time it came to pass, that Cain brought of the fruit of the ground an offering unto the LORD and Abel, he also brought of the firstlings of his flock and of the fat thereof and the LORD had respect unto Abel and to his offering: But unto Cain and to his offering he had not respect. And Cain was very wroth, and his countenance fell.
The LORD said unto Cain, Why art thou wroth? and why is thy countenance fallen?
If thou doest well, shalt thou not be accepted? and if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door. And unto thee shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him.
And Cain talked with Abel his brother: and it came to pass, when they were in the field, that Cain rose up against Abel his brother, and slew him and the LORD said unto Cain, Where is Abel thy brother? And he said, I know not: Am I my brother's keeper?
and he said, What hast thou done? the voice of thy brother's blood crieth unto me from the ground and now art thou cursed from the earth, which hath opened her mouth to receive thy brother's blood from thy hand; when thou tillest the ground, it shall not henceforth yield unto thee her strength; a fugitive and a vagabond shalt thou be in the earth.
And Cain said unto the LORD, My punishment is greater than I can bear. Behold, thou hast driven me out this day from the face of the earth; and from thy face shall I be hid; and I shall be a fugitive and a vagabond in the earth; and it shall come to pass, that every one that findeth me shall slay me.
And the LORD said unto him, Therefore whosoever slayeth Cain, vengeance shall be taken on him sevenfold. And the LORD set a mark upon Cain, lest any finding him should kill him.
And Cain went out from the presence of the LORD, and dwelt in the land of Nod, on the east of Eden.


East of Eden - John Steinbeck

“Do you remember when you read us the sixteen verses of the fourth chapter of Genesis and we argued about them?”

“I do indeed. And that’s a long time ago.”

“Ten years nearly,” said Lee. “Well, the story bit deeply into me and I went into it word for word. The more I thought about the story, the more profound it became to me. Then I compared the translations we have—and they were fairly close. There was only one place that bothered me. The King James version says this—it is when Jehovah has asked Cain why he is angry. Jehovah says, ‘If thou doest well, shalt thou not be accepted? and if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door. And unto thee shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him.’ It was the ‘thou shalt’ that struck me, because it was a promise that Cain would conquer sin.”

Samuel nodded. “And his children didn’t do it entirely,” he said.

Lee sipped his coffee. “Then I got a copy of the American Standard Bible. It was very new then. And it was different in this passage. It says, ‘Do thou rule over him.’ Now this is very different. This is not a promise, it is an order. And I began to stew about it. I wondered what the original word of the original writer had been that these very different translations could be made.”

Samuel put his palms down on the table and leaned forward and the old young light came into his eyes. “Lee,” he said, “don’t tell me you studied Hebrew!”

Lee said, “I’m going to tell you. And it’s a fairly long story. Will you have a touch of ng-ka-py?”

“You mean the drink that tastes of good rotten apples?”

“Yes. I can talk better with it.”

“Maybe I can listen better,” said Samuel.

While Lee went to the kitchen Samuel asked, “Adam, did you know about this?”

“No,” said Adam. “He didn’t tell me. Maybe I wasn’t listening.”

Lee came back with his stone bottle and three little porcelain cups so thin and delicate that the light shone through them. “Dlinkee Chinee fashion,” he said and poured the almost black liquor. “There’s a lot of wormwood in this. It’s quite a drink,” he said. “Has about the same effect as absinthe if you drink enough of it.”

Samuel sipped the drink. “I want to know why you were so interested,” he said.

“Well, it seemed to me that the man who could conceive this great story would know exactly what he wanted to say and there would be no confusion in his statement.”

“You say ‘the man.’ Do you then not think this is a divine book written by the inky finger of God?”

“I think the mind that could think this story was a curiously divine mind. We have had a few such minds in China too.”

“I just wanted to know,” said Samuel. “You’re not a Presbyterian after all.”

“I told you I was getting more Chinese. Well, to go on, I went to San Francisco to the headquarters of our family association. Do you know about them? Our great families have centers where any member can get help or give it. The Lee family is very large. It takes care of its own.”

“I have heard of them,” said Samuel.

“You mean Chinee hatchet man fightee Tong war over slave girl?”

“I guess so.”

“It’s a little different from that, really,” said Lee. “I went there because in our family there are a number of ancient reverend gentlemen who are great scholars. They are thinkers in exactness. A man may spend many years pondering a sentence of the scholar you call Confucius. I thought there might be experts in meaning who could advise me.

“They are fine old men. They smoke their two pipes of opium in the afternoon and it rests and sharpens them, and they sit through the night and their minds are wonderful. I guess no other people have been able to use opium well.”

Lee dampened his tongue in the black brew. “I respectfully submitted my problem to one of these sages, read him the story, and told him what I understood from it. The next night four of them met and called me in. We discussed the story all night long.”

Lee laughed. “I guess it’s funny,” he said. “I know I wouldn’t dare tell it to many people. Can you imagine four old gentlemen, the youngest is over ninety now, taking on the study of Hebrew? They engaged a learned rabbi. They took to the study as though they were children. Exercise books, grammar, vocabulary, simple sentences. You should see Hebrew written in Chinese ink with a brush! The right to left didn’t bother them as much as it would you, since we write up to down. Oh, they were perfectionists! They went to the root of the matter.”

“And you?” said Samuel.

“I went along with them, marveling at the beauty of their proud clean brains. I began to love my race, and for the first time I wanted to be Chinese. Every two weeks I went to a meeting with them, and in my room here I covered pages with writing. I bought every known Hebrew dictionary. But the old gentlemen were always ahead of me. It wasn’t long before they were ahead of our rabbi; he brought a colleague in. Mr. Hamilton, you should have sat through some of those nights of argument and discussion. The questions, the inspection, oh, the lovely thinking—the beautiful thinking.

“After two years we felt that we could approach your sixteen verses of the fourth chapter of Genesis. My old gentlemen felt that these words were very important too—‘Thou shalt’ and ‘Do thou.’ And this was the gold from our mining: ‘Thou mayest.’ ‘Thou mayest rule over sin.’ The old gentlemen smiled and nodded and felt the years were well spent. It brought them out of their Chinese shells too, and right now they are studying Greek.”

Samuel said, “It’s a fantastic story. And I’ve tried to follow and maybe I’ve missed somewhere. Why is this word so important?”

Lee’s hand shook as he filled the delicate cups. He drank his down in one gulp. “Don’t you see?” he cried. “The American Standard translation orders men to triumph over sin, and you can call sin ignorance. The King James translation makes a promise in ‘Thou shalt,’ meaning that men will surely triumph over sin. But the Hebrew word, the word timshel—‘Thou mayest’— that gives a choice. It might be the most important word in the world. That says the way is open. That throws it right back on a man. For if ‘Thou mayest’—it is also true that ‘Thou mayest not.’ Don’t you see?”

“Yes, I see. I do see. But you do not believe this is divine law. Why do you feel its importance?”

“Ah!” said Lee. “I’ve wanted to tell you this for a long time. I even anticipated your questions and I am well prepared. Any writing which has influenced the thinking and the lives of innumerable people is important. Now, there are many millions in their sects and churches who feel the order, ‘Do thou,’ and throw their weight into obedience. And there are millions more who feel predestination in ‘Thou shalt.’ Nothing they may do can interfere with what will be. But ‘Thou mayest’! Why, that makes a man great, that gives him stature with the gods, for in his weakness and his filth and his murder of his brother he has still the great choice. He can choose his course and fight it through and win.” Lee’s voice was a chant of triumph.

Adam said, “Do you believe that, Lee?”

“Yes, I do. Yes, I do. It is easy out of laziness, out of weakness, to throw oneself into the lap of deity, saying, ‘I couldn’t help it; the way was set.’ But think of the glory of the choice! That makes a man a man. A cat has no choice, a bee must make honey. There’s no godliness there. And do you know, those old gentlemen who were sliding gently down to death are too interested to die now?”

Adam said, “Do you mean these Chinese men believe the Old Testament?”

Lee said, “These old men believe a true story, and they know a true story when they hear it. They are critics of truth. They know that these sixteen verses are a history of humankind in any age or culture or race. They do not believe a man writes fifteen and three-quarter verses of truth and tells a lie with one verb. Confucius tells men how they should live to have good and successful lives. But this—this is a ladder to climb to the stars.” Lee’s eyes shone. “You can never lose that. It cuts the feet from under weakness and cowardliness and laziness.”

Adam said, “I don’t see how you could cook and raise the boys and take care of me and still do all this.”

“Neither do I,” said Lee. “But I take my two pipes in the afternoon, no more and no less, like the elders. And I feel that I am a man. And I feel that a man is a very important thing—maybe more important than a star. This is not theology. I have no bent toward gods. But I have a new love for that glittering instrument, the human soul. It is a lovely and unique thing in the universe. It is always attacked and never destroyed— because ‘Thou mayest.’”

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Timshel...thou mayest....

thou mayest rule over thy craving
thou mayest crawl out of thy illgotten savings
thou mayest smile through thy pain
for thou mayest be joyous in the rain.

opens a whole new world.

Friday, July 07, 2006

This is Single Malt speaking!

Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome Mr ******, the thought behind the machine, the brain that conceived ##### 20 years ago, the man who stands for everything that our times represent.
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Good morning ladies and gentlemen.
This is single malt speaking.
You might be wondering who am I and why am I here instead of Mr ******.
I think its time to address the question that one faces at some point of his life.
The dilemma of choosing between satisfaction and ambition..

One begins to wonder where one ends and the other begins.
Two things that can never go hand in hand. Or can it?
For all that matters is what you are and how you are? Does it?
Or is that all that matters is what others think and how others thing?

MBA. That is the key word, the gateway to all things that one expects. Big names that come to your doorstep and lift you up with their mind boggling language, their slick ease and of course their promises of a better future, a clean future where only you matter and your performance does.
Once you get in you realize that you were taken in. the language and the faces mouthing those words were just the mask that is used to hide all the mess and the drooping faces behind the scenes. None of the masks will talk about the people required to do the dull dreary and mind numbing job of keeping their system in line. None will talk about the requirement of taking any shit from the customer as long as he gives you the contract.

It makes one wonder why people are not treated as people.
Can you imagine this? A senior HR manager in an MNC telling a new employee this
“ You are all just numbers for us. We pick you and put you where we want. Who are you to decide where you want to be? We get requirements and we fill it up.”
Now that is perfect. The faceless monster in the open. One wonders what was it that made this person reveal so much of the monster. They usually go to great lengths to keep it hidden under their plastic every ready smile.

You must have often heard the statement “Live for today but plan for tomorrow”.
Now that is one hell of a statement! Today is just another day in life, same people same things what can you do to change that? How much can you change that?
It all comes down to one thing, 8 hrs a day have to be spent in a place where you have to drag yourself to.
Every morning the first thought that comes to your mind is ‘damn another day in drowning paradise’

Drowning paradise, the place where one-steps in with high expectations.
One feels that till then one was just another name another number in the register.

Drowning paradise, the place that promises so much, where one can forget all the injustice done to him. Where one can prove what he is. No one realizes that it’s just another farce.
Performance bonus, incentives, hard work, intelligence, all just fancy words to hide the fact that as long as you create no problems and don’t ask too many questions, You shall be treated as just another number a punch card that walks in and out and does what it is asked of.

Number: 100xxxxxx
Days worked: 30
Salary: xx, 000.00

I am Single malt.

Many of you spend the evenings staring at me in one form or the other, alone or together, staring at walls of flashing lights and mind jarring music or just sitting alone at home thinking ‘is this what I want?’
You curse and spend hours together finding and highlighting every single thing you think is wrong, you plan and plot to change at least one thing in your life. You decide you can’t take it any more and plan to exchange one paradise for another.
But what is it that you are really want?
The numbers change the faces change but monster remains the same, in one form or the other. The euphoria of landing in another drowning paradise shall drain away and you shall once again find your self staring at me.

I am not here to provide solace to your confused mind. I am not here for you to drown your sorrows. I am for people who live life the way they want. Only then can enjoy the joy and the warmth of facing me. Only they can relish the subtle difference.

For the rest of you its just a question of which will get to you.
Ambition or satisfaction.
Ambition, the fire that makes you jump from one paradise to another, just a vicious cycle that starts with euphoria and ends with me.
Satisfaction, the charlatan who seeks to keep you where you are, just another number, just another name.
The choice is yours.

Rest in peace
This is Single malt signing off.
Good day.